Rise and Shine..

Ever felt like a fool? Like, really convinced that you were being stupid?

Being stupid for believing in something....
You hear something so many times, that you start believing in it...
You start thinking that this must be true...
You start wondering if this will happen someday...

And when you are comfortably happy in your world, someone just shows you the mirror, and diplomatically tells you where you stand ...It's a politically correct thing to say, but what you hear is just short of saying, "What the fuck is wrong with you.. You really thought this could happen.. never seen a bigger idiot, (tch tch)"

And you can't react.. coz you don't know how to..

But I shall not react...

I have faith in myself. I shall fall flat on my face again, and again, and still rise.
I shall rise again... Rise and Shine.

choices and options..

We all have choices to make, and options to choose from.. but making a choice is not the same as choosing an option...
sometimes you make a choice of your own will...
and the other times, you pick from the available options..

The difference is subtle and and you know it only when you have done both at some point in your life!

Today, I will not ask questions, seek options, and choose option 1;

Today I am making a choice, and I will live with it.

Truth or dare?

I spent the last 2 days facing a bitter truth. Sometimes you don't have an option, the truth is just thrust in your face and you are caught off guard.

You bump into it round the corner when you least expect it, when you are trying hard to deny the truth. You are shaken out of your dream world, just when you begin to believe a lie.
It stands tall in front of you, making eye contact. And you have to smile. Coz that's the best (and probably the only) thing you can do.

Would you accept the truth and move on, hurt and hoping that time will make it all right?
Or would you dare to confront and change it; dare to define and work towards the ending the way you want it?

What would you do? Truth or dare?

A silent prayer

Dear God,

Give me tears, but give me someone to kiss them dry
Give me happiness, and give me someone to share it with
Give me a smile, and let me light up the world
Give me music, and give me a companion to dance
Give me pain, but give me a hand to hold through it
Give me love, and let me spread it
Give me hatred but give me the courage to counter it


Dear God, just let me be me, and make me a better person everyday

closure....

I have just returned from dubai and I realize that we all seek closures in our lives.
As strange and complicated as life may be, there is a best before date for everthing. And I mean EVERYTHING. If you leave it open ended and and let it linger on beyond a threshold, it becomes a liability.

On that note, I have finally thrown the Nina Ricci bottle out of the window. It was long due. It was long over and I was holding an empty bottle with no fragrance left at all, close to my heart.
It takes a heavy heart to get rid of it, but it was much needed.

Destiny

Sometimes you don't know what you want;
Sometimes you know, but you don't want to accept it.
Even when you accept it, you don't want to say it.
Maybe you tell yourself, that it isn't right.
Maybe you tell yourself, that this is not how it is supposed to be.
You tell yourself, this is not how it started off.
You try to design the ending in your head, defying the truth.


Sometimes you just need to switch off your mind, and accept that you are crazy.
Sometimes, you just need to let life take its course.
Sometimes, you just need to let destiny knock, instead of trying to write it!

(Dis)Coloured

Just when I thought that colours were draining off and I had begun to see my life in black and white, I stumbled upon something dis-coloured, with a shade of gray.

I had had it for 6 years, but looking at it this time, was so different. It shone bright in a different perspective. It taught me to appreciate the beauty of life. It told me that life is always full of colours.. we just need to open our eyes and see them.

Now, I see colours like I did never before. They fill me with joy, they fill me with happiness, they fill me with excitement, they fill me with anxiety.

I don't know how long this will last, but I am happy about the (dis)coloured perspective or the lack of it!

P.S. purple is the colour of the week :)

huh???

How is it that you fell in love with me coz I was different;
and now complain that I am not like the others, and should learn a thing or two from them?

It's like saying that you love a Hyundai, but would like the engine replaced by Ford's, mileage by Toyota's, maintenance by Maruti's and space by GM.
Do you really love a Hyundai, then?

And should you still own a Hyundai if you don't love it anymore?

The power of me

Today, I wish myself a very happy woman's day! And I wish all my fellow girl friends the very best of today!

Today, I celebrate the strength of a woman, the weakness of a girl.
Today, I resolve to smile, irrespective of whatever anyone thinks or wants or does.
Today, I forgive the inglorious bastards, who caused me so much pain.
Today, I realize that I am better than any of them and therefore shall ignore their actions. It's no point in giving it back to them, lest I stoop to their level.
Today, I love myself.

Today and everyday from now on, I celebrate the power of me.

It's over...

It's been over for long, but today I put my foot down and make it official.

This day will mark the end of the long standing struggle between Mridula and MJ....
Needless to say, MJ has emerged a clear winner. After much thought and discussion, it has been decided that Mridula needs to go, and go for good.

Hereafter MJ takes it over!

Irony!

It's weird in some sense, but then isn't life weird?

Just a few things that I thought I could never give up, but I guess we all change!
and don't ask me why.. I don't have any logical explanation to this.. I guess that's just me.. on the extremes!

1. I used to love lazing in the bath tub and it was a deciding factor whenever I booked hotels during travel; but now that I have one in my own bathroom, I have never used it!
2. I avoid any piece of clothing in chocolate brown, or just brown; beige still survives my moods
3. I love cinnamon rolls, but I just smile and enjoy the smell whenever I cross Cinnabon; I don't stop by to eat it any more.
4. I don't look for the smoking zones in the airport any longer
5. I don't wake up at 2 in the morning to see if I have any gtalk message or a mail .. and I most certainly don't sleep holding my phone any more! (Isn't that a pleasant change!)

There are a lot of things that I don't do any longer, but these are top 5 and the most drastic ones!

One day is all I need

Just one day -
ONE day of old times,
a day without complications,
a day of me being me,
a day with someone I really want to be with,
a day where I am not judged,
a day of being loved for what I am and not hated for my actions,
a day of understanding why I did what I did,
a day of heart-to-heart talk,
a day of walking hand in hand on the beach,
a day without pretending that everything is all right,
a day of admittance that life hasn't move on,
a day of acceptance,
a day of being at peace with myself
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Just one day is all I need.