tired....

I confess.. Admit that I am tired. Very tired.
Tired of pretending.. To be strong.. To be alive.
Of hoping... That I can live my life the way I want, that things will change...That I can change things.
Of expecting..
Of loving..
Of waiting..
Of smiling..
Of saying that it is ok.. It will be fine.
Of thinking about others.. Of keeping insignificant people above myself..

I am tired, of everything.
I need a break. I swear I do. To sort it out in my head. To accept that suchh is life. And to move on.