Journey to Motherhood

In less than 15 days I am expecting my 1st (and for now the only) baby.

It’s been quite an exciting journey till now:
from “f%^#-I-m-pregnant” 1st month,
to “Oh-baby-we’re-gonna-have-a-baby” 2nd month
to “what-will-we-call-the-baby” 4th month
to “oops-I-forgot-I-m-pregnant” 6th month
to “OMG-when-will-this-get-over” 9th month!

Actually I haven’t quite “felt” the pregnancy (if you know what I mean) coz I was working regular (read inhuman!) hours until the beginning of 9th month. And I am still working from home while my parents are losing sleep worrying that I can deliver anytime!!!!! (Though I am not sure if my baby is in a hurry to meet her mum, knowing how much time her mum has given her while she was inside).

But working from home gives me much more time at hand to think and plan for my baby. Tasks, much needed for the baby, which I have finally managed to accomplish, though late in the day:

1. Zero down on a name!!!! That’s an achievement I tell you.
2. Be regular with my eating habits
3. Have my medicines on time
4. Exercise a little, go for walks.
5. Relax myself, and tell myself repeatedly that everything else can wait
6. Be regular with my doctor’s appointments
7. Drop everything else and go for my medical tests
8. Have a foot massage as often as I want / need
9. Sleep when and as often as I want to; given that I can’t sleep at nights due to the weight of the baby, a 30 min afternoon nap is a god-sent!
10. Keep myself off the fire-fighting at work, unless it’s really a fire

I love this time, but as I said – the wait is so boring and frustrating, I am desperate to meet the baby now!

P.S: Was speaking with my husband today and was briefing him on my doctor’s appointment; told him that the doc has asked me to monitor the baby’s movements every two hours now. “I don’t have a life, I tell you”, I said. “You were not supposed to have an independent life, since the day you conceived our baby. I am glad you finally realized it”, pat came the reply!

I am off!

I go off work from 15th March… at least for some time… say 3 – 4 months or maybe even 6.

I am so looking forward to the break. This is the 1st time in God knows how many years that I will be taking a break from hectic, senseless, mindless, 9am-11pm routine in life. There is so much I need to do .. wake up at 1030 am (if I get to sleep at night that is!), just lying around in the bed.. have a bath at 1:00 pm.. late lunches.. lazy afternoons, evening movies, books.. blah blah blah..

On the other hand, long breaks scare me. Being the workaholic that I am, I am not sure how I will cope up with just sitting at home and not attending office at all! Haven’t done it before.. 7-10 days between jobs is fine.. but months seem just too long.
Also, what awaits me during the break (and for a lifetime after that) is more time-consuming, hectic and stressful. I may not have any time for my plans at all! Who knows!

But I am sure that it won’t be senseless. Even if it’s stressful, I look forward to the stress. I may not get any sleep, but I look forward to the sleepless nights….
I look forward to one tiny creature calling me mummy.