Insanity bites, Ghostrider strikes :)

Been out of this space for long. Like the title of this post says, the insanity bug has bitten. Have quit my job (V has taken a 6 month sabbatical) and we are out on the road on a motorcycle. No, not Venom. We decided to buy a new one for this venture. So V landed up in the US on 14th, bought a Honda ST 1300, I joined him on 22nd and we hit the road on 28th. The bike is called Ghostrider :)

Started our journey from San francisco. Heading on Highway 1, across California. Details of the trip will be posted on a separate trip blog. So I may be out of action on this space again.

Travelled across California - San Francisco - Los Angeles - Long Beach - Dana Point - Joshua Tree National Park - Death Valley - Vegas

currently in Vegas, updating this from starbucks.. gotta go..

follow the trip @ www.thecrazybikers.blogspot.com

tired....

I confess.. Admit that I am tired. Very tired.
Tired of pretending.. To be strong.. To be alive.
Of hoping... That I can live my life the way I want, that things will change...That I can change things.
Of expecting..
Of loving..
Of waiting..
Of smiling..
Of saying that it is ok.. It will be fine.
Of thinking about others.. Of keeping insignificant people above myself..

I am tired, of everything.
I need a break. I swear I do. To sort it out in my head. To accept that suchh is life. And to move on.

Rise and Shine..

Ever felt like a fool? Like, really convinced that you were being stupid?

Being stupid for believing in something....
You hear something so many times, that you start believing in it...
You start thinking that this must be true...
You start wondering if this will happen someday...

And when you are comfortably happy in your world, someone just shows you the mirror, and diplomatically tells you where you stand ...It's a politically correct thing to say, but what you hear is just short of saying, "What the fuck is wrong with you.. You really thought this could happen.. never seen a bigger idiot, (tch tch)"

And you can't react.. coz you don't know how to..

But I shall not react...

I have faith in myself. I shall fall flat on my face again, and again, and still rise.
I shall rise again... Rise and Shine.

choices and options..

We all have choices to make, and options to choose from.. but making a choice is not the same as choosing an option...
sometimes you make a choice of your own will...
and the other times, you pick from the available options..

The difference is subtle and and you know it only when you have done both at some point in your life!

Today, I will not ask questions, seek options, and choose option 1;

Today I am making a choice, and I will live with it.

Truth or dare?

I spent the last 2 days facing a bitter truth. Sometimes you don't have an option, the truth is just thrust in your face and you are caught off guard.

You bump into it round the corner when you least expect it, when you are trying hard to deny the truth. You are shaken out of your dream world, just when you begin to believe a lie.
It stands tall in front of you, making eye contact. And you have to smile. Coz that's the best (and probably the only) thing you can do.

Would you accept the truth and move on, hurt and hoping that time will make it all right?
Or would you dare to confront and change it; dare to define and work towards the ending the way you want it?

What would you do? Truth or dare?

A silent prayer

Dear God,

Give me tears, but give me someone to kiss them dry
Give me happiness, and give me someone to share it with
Give me a smile, and let me light up the world
Give me music, and give me a companion to dance
Give me pain, but give me a hand to hold through it
Give me love, and let me spread it
Give me hatred but give me the courage to counter it


Dear God, just let me be me, and make me a better person everyday

closure....

I have just returned from dubai and I realize that we all seek closures in our lives.
As strange and complicated as life may be, there is a best before date for everthing. And I mean EVERYTHING. If you leave it open ended and and let it linger on beyond a threshold, it becomes a liability.

On that note, I have finally thrown the Nina Ricci bottle out of the window. It was long due. It was long over and I was holding an empty bottle with no fragrance left at all, close to my heart.
It takes a heavy heart to get rid of it, but it was much needed.